and the snap shot of the year

courtesy of camille (prettycamz621)

i was having 2nd thoughts in posting this pic.. (nahihiya ako kasi) but i just checked.. in a span of three months, i lost 42 lbs.. whoa.. if you cant believe it, i cant too.. lol.. i guess this is what happens when im super, dooper, uberly depressed lol.. (sana pala madepress nalang ako habang buhay kung ganon? hehe)... dunno.. nakakatuwa toh.. pinakita ko sa isang friend ko yung pic..katuwa lang reaction nya


«·´º´·•[ •+*+anya zhantal+*+•]•·´º´·»: may papakita ako sayo
^blizz^:  anu un?
«·´º´·•[ •+*+anya zhantal+*+•]•·´º´·»: shocking toh..
^blizz^: ?
«·´º´·•[ •+*+anya zhantal+*+•]•·´º´·»: sandali
^blizz^: o cge
^blizz^: send it to me
(*sent him the picture)
^blizz^: WOAHHHH
^blizz^: hahahaha
^blizz^: amazinggg
«·´º´·•[ •+*+anya zhantal+*+•]•·´º´·»: its the same damit
^blizz^: dayymmm yooo
^blizz^: ang ganda mo 
«·´º´·•[ •+*+anya zhantal+*+•]•·´º´·»: 3 months
«·´º´·•[ •+*+anya zhantal+*+•]•·´º´·»: 42 lbs
«·´º´·•[ •+*+anya zhantal+*+•]•·´º´·»: muka akong _________ 3 months ago
^blizz^: impressed tlaga ako galeng mow
^blizz^: lol sobra ka nman
«·´º´·•[ •+*+anya zhantal+*+•]•·´º´·»: totoo kayaa
^blizz^: indi kaya
^blizz^: lol
«·´º´·•[ •+*+anya zhantal+*+•]•·´º´·»: o sige mini ___________
^blizz^: lol
«·´º´·•[ •+*+anya zhantal+*+•]•·´º´·»: buti nalang nadepress ako ng malupet
^blizz^: lol
«·´º´·•[ •+*+anya zhantal+*+•]•·´º´·»: wooooo sana madepress ako parati
«·´º´·•[ •+*+anya zhantal+*+•]•·´º´·»: habang buhay hanggang pumayat ako ng sobra sobra
^blizz^: not realli i'll still luv u kahit march 2008 pa
«·´º´·•[ •+*+anya zhantal+*+•]•·´º´·»: awwwwwwwwwww ur the bestest pokey everrrrrrr
^blizz^: :D

made me realize na there are some people din pala na wont care kung anu ichura mo. katuwa lang. im overjoyed with how people are responding. kanila camz ko super nas-share how happy i am everytime nar-realize ko how much im changing.. i know na im still not that thin pero wala lang. accomplishment parin naman dba? lols..

if the top fits wear it

went to greenhills today... after two months of diet torture. i decided that its time for me to go s-h-o-p-p-i-n-g!!! not only because i felt like it but because i couldnt wear anything anymore.. every piece of clothing that i own looks big on me...  so.. i saw this nice white off shoulder peasant top.. i remember dreaming of wearing one since like forever but because of the fact that i was on the heavy side.. i couldnt... i held it, asked the lady how much it was.. but what bothered me most is if its gonna fit me.. "wala bang size toh?" i asked.. "wala, one size lang sha" the sales lady answered.. DAMN! i don't think its gonna fit me.. errr.. and as if reading my mind the sales lady told me "kasha yan sayo, gusto mo i-try?" i just smiled. i didnt want to try it on.. i feel awkward kasi.. i was thinking that it really wont fit me, plus the dressing room was just improvised so its more humiliating if it wont fit me.. errr.. so.. should i get it or not? she looked honest naman when she told me na its kasha.. FINE! ill get it.. if it wont fit me, ill just cry and try to loose more weight until i can finally wear it.. make it my motivation to lose more weight.. *sighs.. bought a skirt (that's supposed to go with the top) and this dress that i forgot how they call it pero im sure naman na its gonna fit me.. (well i tried it on.. lol..) anywayz.. when i got home, i was having second thoughts if im gonna try it on or not.. di mawala sa isip ko.. paano na kung di sha kashaaa!! grr i hate it.. another disappointment... after a hanging out with ivan for a few minutes, i finally decided to try it on.. i went up in my room, peb was there.. yes.. may moral support.. "peb, paano kung di kasha?".. "kasha yan ano ba!" ok.. lets get this over and done with.. i took out the top from the paper bag.. feeling ko nag sign of the cross pa ako lols.. started to try it on.. shet.. parang maliit ata.. oh no.. nakakaiyak na.. BUT WAIT.. omg.. nasuot ko sha ng maayos.. its not too tight.. not too loose din.. wow.. its.. PERFECT! omg.. i nearly jumped for joy.. i showed it to my sister.. "sabe ko sayo eh!!" i went down.. called manang tessie and showed it to her.. in other words, pinakita ko sa lahat ng tao na nasa bahay.. i cant believe it.. i just cant.. LOL!! i tried on the skirt too, it fits perfectly.. and the other dress.. perfect din.. (though i need something to cover my shoulders pa.. im not the confident yet.. i know, i still need to find a way to trim down my arms and shoulders) but nevertheless.. it looks good on me... talk about boosing your self confidence!! i know, i know, im making such a big fuss about it, but if you're someone who lost 28 pounds in just 2 months and finally living her life to the fullest, then you'll understand.. lol..

an OTAP a day

someone was generous enough to bring me 2 packs of otap as a pasalubong from his vacation in cebu. i dont know if he knows but i loveeeeeeeee otap.. its soooo love! i remember when i was young, my aunt, whose husband is from cebu, would bring home pasalubong for us whenever they go there. along with otap, she'd buy ronquillos, dried mangoes, turones and a lot more but for me, OTAP is FTW.

*Otap is an oval-shaped puff pastry in the Philippines, especially common in Cebu where it  originated. It is usually created from a combination of flour, shortening, coconut, and sugar. In order to achieve the distinctive texture of the pastry, it much undergo a two-stage baking process.

everybody close to me knows that i love otap so much. i cant say no to it.. and it's sad coz right now im on a heavy diet.. :( so what i planned to do is eat a piece everyday. it guess it wont hurt.. right?

sadness..

i am what i eat